Sunday, December 27, 2009

哈哈

啊哈哈哈哈哈哈!
delete了才发现我没有block
哈哈哈
所以他还是会看到我online
不过不打紧
我看不到就好啦

谢谢asbr师傅的指点
哈哈哈

删除了

盯着yes 和 no 盯了好久
后来还是按了yes

知道自己很幼稚
很不大方
我可以祝福
但我还没大方到每天看人家的恩爱

因为我始终...始终很在意
那么短的时间有了新欢
是我太差劲 还是你其实并没我想象中爱我

这也许是好事
起码我应该不会再 跑了又停 跌了又起
反反复复 我不累 我身边的朋友也累了

分手亦是朋友 我做不到
我终于删除了 他的msn

ARGH

tmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmstmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmdtmd

uhh. i typed it all. not copy and paste.
im so tmd
please forgive my rudeness.

delete or dont online.
i guess delete is the best way.
oh fuck.

i havt done any single piece of my assingment neither homework.
argh!

once again.
TAMADE!

ARGH!

post something

hi there.
it's me. :)

suddenly feel like want to blog something.
hmm.. something.
okie. let's start.

first of all. i haven't finish my assignment which i promised myself to be done by today.
im going to finish it by today. i said!

next.. i have been left behind. too much. no doubt, i skipped too many classes.
not im lazy, but cos im sick and doesn't feeling well! ahaha.
so much homework to be copied.. tis one have to be done by today also. i said!

then.. here come me emo part.
keep on listen to the same song, Jay Chou's "Reason-Jie Kou"
dn know why, it touches me. touches. ahaha.

lastly, i saw that girl's picture. she looks mature, sweet and soft.
okie.. im totaly the opposite one. ahaha.
that's the actual type he likes and suits.
and i should say: Wish both of u all the best
okie okie, im not that generous go and tell him. <----useless statement
BUT 
dont worry, i said no more sadness n sorrowness.
AND
im so good u knw, irreplaceable, the unique one. :))
*^^* cant u see it? my smile so sweet. awh!

that's all. i gotta finish up my works.
aiks.. feel so lazy to do it.. no mood at all. :((
alasan betul.

see yea.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

bbq party~

cy's house, bbq night
为了庆祝迟来的圣诞
无可否认 cy家很大!

我喜欢他家的鱼池
感觉很好很舒服很喜欢
还有他房外的走廊
绝对是个晚上看星星的好地方
还有那吊床 虽然当时没吊上
如果在那午睡 一定很舒服

他家 真的很温馨..
温馨得几乎当晚的所有人
都在心绪化..

我明白
家家有本难念的经
有说不出的痛苦
但 朋友们 加油!

爸爸妈妈
今夜又让你们担心了..

夜归有人为你担心
不管多夜 都会问你到家没
那种感觉 真的很好..

cy送了我份圣诞礼物..
但让我喜欢的是那卡片
那几行字 看了不仅笑了
我会记得天天开心
谢谢你 cy.
:))

就这样
晚安
:))

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas!!


-Uncle Santa Clause, i want happiness as my Christmas present.. please.. ♥-

yay. It's Christmas!
okie, nothing special.. cos no one date me out! :((

Santa Clause is coming to my room.
OMG. i ned to prepare my wishlist!!
A big HAPPINESS.
hahaha.

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

with love | ♥

no more tears
no more sadness
it's already enough, my dear

no matter how you feel
get up
dress up
and show up
the best is yet to come

不再流泪
不再悲伤
亲爱的, 那已经足够了

不管心情有多糟
站起来
画个妆 套上美丽的衣裳
然后  靓丽的 出现在人群中
亲爱的, 最好的还没出现

xoxo

蝴蝶飞了

-蝴蝶终于明白 扑蝶者已当个扑蜜者 已不再对蝶留恋 蝴蝶接受也面对-


是的接受事实
在最短的时间内
冷静 安抚 面对 接受
 
谢谢妹妹的陪伴
我真的真的很庆幸有个好妹妹
 
剩下的我得自己帮自己
会努力 会很努力
好好的 很好的
做个 我喜欢 的陈媚媚
 
不会让自己过得很狼狈
我不会
你也不会 对吧
 
我们都加油!
 
-蝴蝶将继续飞 飞啊飞 直到 真正的扑蝶者 来到它身旁-

什么是事实

事实 你知道什么是事实吗
现在已经证实了

我该如何反应
你教我

我该如何反应
我是该怀着什么样的心情
是该怎样

你教我

Monday, December 21, 2009

我·病

病得乱七八糟
病得很狼狈
像僵尸一样
好难看

一直一直睡不好
睡睡醒醒
发噩梦醒后
却不知可以找谁

这几天
很难过 很辛苦 很难熬

Sunday, December 20, 2009

别怕

别怕
没事的
别哭
没事的
来我们抱着枕头
抱紧紧
没事的
没事的
来笑一个
别怕

Saturday, December 19, 2009

飞蛾扑火

-人类像飞蛾一样,总爱往火力飞去。
难道,他们不知道这样的所作所为,
只带领他们走上灭亡之路吗?-
天使·梦

飞蛾扑火
曾经 有位朋友也曾用飞蛾扑火来点我
他说 有些东西之所以美好 是因为存在着 距离感
越是靠近它越会感到害怕 压迫感

为何明知不对 不好
却还一意孤行
我明白 此举乃是多余

我会当只 有理性的飞蛾
不会让自己那么狼狈

晚安。:)

Friday, December 18, 2009

爱惜自己((:

亲爱的我

花花世界真的很美
美得让人陶醉
但请记得
最初的自己

我知道你爱玩
喜欢新鲜刺激
但别当个脱缰的野马

亲爱的
要记得爱惜自己
爱惜自己
爱惜自己
((:

Thursday, December 17, 2009

MOS night!

i love your eyes
i love your voice
i love your shoulder
i love the way u concentrate on sth
And you still have All of me

i believe true love waits, too.

Party night at MOS.
It was fun!
Evacuate the dancefloor!
laughing drinking dancing shaking all the night.
A nice experience.
wonder if i will addicted to it.
XD

oh yes, our courserep get drunk!
and he kept on talking nonsense!
not to mention act cute!
XD

but dancefloor really dangerous lo!
-for detail information please msn mm-
XD

tat's all for last night. :))

*Chivas makes me sleepless lar..

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

ouch!

ouch! 一起床就大喊
害得我的室友吓一跳的问我: 肌肉痛?
paisee a..吓到你了 ><

是的 昨天打羽球去了
应该是我太卖命的挥拍了
左手和大腿 疼

我的aiya妈咪给了我yoko-yoko
可是啊 我不知道该擦在哪啦!
><

真糟糕 等下放学后还得去逛klcc
明天又crazy party night..
我的腿啊 我的身体啊 再忍耐下吧
妈咪保证过了星期四 就会让你休息!

-like a song that goes around my head-

Monday, December 14, 2009

又是一些笨心情

我最近常常在想
如果有一天我发现
他真的喜欢别人了
真的和别人在一起了
status 变 in a relationship了
我会怎样..
很难过? 一直在哭?什么都不吃?
一直睡?一直听歌?什么都不做?
然后 大病一场 像当时我们分手一样..
我会不会变那样呢?
还是..
我不会在乎了 只是不开心那么一下下?

我想
我是应该更努力 灌输自己一些正确的‘反应’
比如 别去在意 别去探索

aiks.说得容易 结果我还不是 戒不掉 ):

明天打羽球 oh yay!
好久没打了 拍都生锈了!

呵呵,晚安咯 (:

Sunday, December 13, 2009

小·戒

好吧
明天开始不开fb三天 ><
不看pjy的blog三天 ><
appear offline 三天 ><

啊哈哈
我有在戒哦! XD

那就这样吧
乖宝宝要去睡觉了~~~

-如果故事的主角是我 那该有多好-

-戒掉-

刚看了anime-xxxHolic
看到一段很有意识的一句话

〈所谓的戒掉 是指 全部 彻底
什么一下子 一点点 一瞬间
都一样是在 做〉

很有意思 对吧?

所以啊 我说我呀
不是戒不掉 对他的想念 猜测 及 期待
只是自己不愿意 放开自己

这样做 也不知会不会害了自己
我啊我 就是那么固执。

Friday, December 11, 2009

再po一篇~

erhem.
不好意识 又是我 ><
今天特别 想打字 :D

hmm..
我有个疑问
很想得到答案
可却得不到 aiya
我绝对不敢 不耻下问 :x

不过
我发觉自己渐渐爱上这种
好像是又不是
若隐若现的 感觉

今天一口气看了很多很多部落格
再"like"很多很多fb里的东东
aiya. 多逍遥~

好了~ 我要..
敷片面膜 再看看埋在我床旁n年的小说

明天 要一个人逛街?
><

晚安
xoxo.

相当辛苦疲惫><

处女座 Virgo 23/8- 22/9

处女座自我纠结的一周。由红转黑、颠沛流离。本周的处女座进入年末前的短暂黑暗期,一改此前运势强劲的势头,本周背腹受敌,办公室环境不稳、出差机会极多,但遭遇航班延误、交通堵塞、行程突变的机会也超级多,总之相当之辛苦,疲惫,身体也受到不良影响。唯一可以安慰的,恐怕是这只是年末前的短暂黑暗,伴随着岁末临近,一切都会转向平和平缓,运势未来会逐步回升。财务一般,身体易染病,相当辛苦疲惫。
爱情是心有余力不足。

阿哈哈哈。
相当辛苦疲惫。
相当辛苦疲惫。
相当辛苦疲惫。

passion oh passion~

每次有人问为什么的时候
我的标准答案会是...






因为我喜欢~
passion hits everything off~
oh yeah!

明天是周末!!
我们去走走吧!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

不爽

请容许我满口脏话
我不会文言文
直接点

他妈的
能印的不印
说要印的突然不能印
超级想印的 他妈的填错ink
我真的他妈的不想求别人!

能用的就用 谢谢不会说
那不是理所当然
是我很用心整理 想出来的
我要拿什么来取胜
你可以说我自私
但请想想你自己

厌倦
请别明明就有读 还假装没读 还讽刺别人
请别在别人得高分后 说是讲师偏心
应该想想为何别人一个晚上的工却能拿最高分 不要讽刺 要自闭
我容许你说我高傲

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

im moving on.

it's 6.04am.
as u can see, meimei's sleepless night.

cant fall asleep again after woke up frm a short two hours sleep.
with my pillow, hold it up n down, interchange with my penguin.

while lying on bed
im thinking bout my future.
yea, it's my future.
im clueless bout it.
CLUELESS.

after five years
which field m i?
who will be standing beside me?
am i happy with my life?

btw
i accepted the offer frm media prima.
will be part of NTV7 news production start frm 1st of Feb.
tho there might be shift during the intern, but i accepted it.
i take the risk. cos?
cos i dn wan to miss any oppotunity.
yea. i wan to decrease the term 'regret' in my life.
there are too many 'regret-s' i had been through.

I guess that's all.
gotta do my assignment.
it's too late to start.

my fren asked me: where's long hair meimei?
ahaha. he said im too moody n lazy after my hair cut.

yea. but do u knw the reason i cut my hair? LOL
what has gone is gone. i wont go n find long-hair meimei back.
short-hair meimei will just continue her life. in a better way for sure.

that's all.
see yea.

Monday, December 7, 2009

im trying.

i knw what m i doing.
im fine with it.
dont worry.

im stepping forward.
i do.
just, sometimes im emo.
nothing more than that.

thurs one presentation
fri assignment and presentation
guess what, i still havt start both of them
*claps*

okie. i have to sleep now.
cant sleep well for night.
im so glad to have a pair of cute panda eyes.

good night
my love one.
:)

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Big girls smile. :)

I hope you know
I hope you know
that this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and i
we've got some straightening out to do
and i'm gonna miss you like a child missess their blanket
but i've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
and big girls dont cry
Dont cry
Dont cry
Dont cry

Big girls smile :)

Morning.

darkness fell

妹:我好想过圣诞
我:嗯..为什么..
妹:你不觉得很兴奋吗
我:...
妹:你要怎样庆祝啊?
我:不知道...
妹:我很期待,好想过圣诞!!!
我:...
妹:对了,我们有东西要送给你!哈哈哈哈哈哈..

接着她就一直笑一直笑..
小妹就一直说:i love u. i love u. 有听到吗?
嗯,听到了,我也love u.
我还很想你们.
今年的圣诞
我想要开心的过。


我想回家

不只是你
我自己也厌倦了自己

我想回家
我想回家
我想回家

Saturday, December 5, 2009

就这样

我花了一个晚上
拼命的说话
拼命的狂笑

直到喉咙沙哑
这样我才觉得好过很多

好过很多
好过很多

就这样吧
不提了 不想了
就这样吧

晚安 :)

Friday, December 4, 2009

u're free.

yay~!

feel much more better
after wash wash clean clean
walk here and there
up and down

during the work
keep brain-wash-myself
LOL.

and i told myself.
what's the point so care about it?
im not losing it. cos i lost it since five months ago.
yea. it's FIVE months ago.

Be good with it.
Let it go, my dear.

You're free now. Go ahead.
All the best.
Sincere, from the deepest of my heart.
:)

oh yeah. im going to read a book.
seeya.

我是自私的

-i'll be your side you know i will take your hand-

这样看了谁不难过
我一点都不慷慨

起码 现在我想自私的
毫无权利的 不想他爱上别人

我想去逛街.

who's the main character?

'i will do anything to hear your voice once again.' -Bella-

Finished my last-minutes-assignments
three of them. Last assignment done at 10am tis morning.
*clasps*

My weekend.
What color should i fill?
Blue, Red, Black or Grey?

thought of the day,
does the story goes on?


goodnight. :)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

反省

我是否太过高傲
昂或太高估自己

triple assignments

wuahaha!
two down!
one more to go!
but too bad
i decided to pass up on Friday.. Sorry sir.
please accept my late submission. :(

first in my life time i fix all three assignments in a night.
brand new assignment!
m i crazy? yea.
push myself to the limit.

my chinese really bad. tho english too.
:(

''姬知否己之作為?
此舉讓君深思不解''

means?

goodnight.
have to sleep and wake up early
for doing assignment!!
aahahaha.
hopes i can wake up. ><

mm